Still Here

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 Many of us have lived long enough now to know that at times you can be dealt with life's toughest circumstances. Nothing can prepare you for what you didn't know. Nothing can prepare you for what you now know you should have had. Nothing prepares you for what you didn't see coming. Often times what we didn't know or was unable to foresee can burden us. We can't help but ask questions that begin with " What if..." or "Why did..." in hope that on the other side of those questions is a ready made answer for our toughest battles. Often times hopelessness, disappointment, depression and loneliness rear their ugly heads in the mist of our sufferings and we buckle in their presence.

If you're like me nothing has gone your way. Your life has not been perfect. You've had a lot to overcome. You've survived the betrayal, you've survived the broken friendships, you've survived the suicide, you've survived the lack of support you thought you needed. You've survived being rejected, you've survived being misunderstood, and now you're asking " I've survived all..but now what?" I don't know what that answer is for you might be but for me, it's been transformation. 

May this year (2022)  be a year where you are able to overcome not just yourself, but the darkness in your life that has been void of light and love. May you get a revelation of yourself that will pivot you in the direction of your healing and growth. You've buckled in the presence of hopelessness, disappointment, depression and loneliness for too long. Get up. You're still here champ. 


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