What does being christian look like?!?!? 🤔
So, this is probably going to be my most vulnerable post thus far..bare with me.
Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be christian and what it looks like to be christian. Most of us already know that by definition a Christian is someone who believes in Jesus. But what does being christian look like?. I've had to rethink and reassess what being christian can look like for me. I've had to come to terms with the fact that my christian walk isn't going to look like that one popular christian artist or christian social media influencer and that it was okay. I've had to accept that everybody who is christian is in a different place than me when it comes to their relationship with Jesus. I think for me that realization was the most disappointing truth I've had to constantly remember and accept time and time again. I feel like having to to acknowledge and remember that has made me feel a bit lonely because it has made me feel like either I'll never be able to connect with someone who is christian because their walk is different or that I'll never be good enough to connect with someone who's relationship with Jesus is deeper than mine because I'm not where they are ( but of course that's not true).
Because of having such insecure feelings I've often wondered, am I not connected to other believers because I don't fast as often like that they do? Is it because I cuss sometimes? Is because I'm not as "souled out" for Jesus as they are? ( whatever that means). I've often been made to feel like by people that being christian was what I did or didn't do. I know I don't have a perfect picture cut image of what being christian is when it comes from the perception of people. I am well aware of my flaws mishaps and insecurities, so again, what does being christian look like then?
As much as I've wanted to be accepted and acknowledged by other Christians and connected to other Christians so that I could see what they were doing because deep down I was looking for a blue print. But I'm learning that my being christian so far, had nothing to do with connecting with other Christians but everything to do with having a relationship with Jesus. Having a relationship with the father is what kept me Christian. It was having a relationship with Jesus and reading the bible is what kept me believing and has kept me believing thus far.
Now if some way or some how, I end up in community with other Christians...great, but if I don't that's still great. I'm learning that being christian has everything to do with where my heart is with Jesus. I think that whatever "being' christian looks like in the eyes of man will never be similar to what it actually is. It just feels like now a days there has a to be a look, A certain criteria and there's not enough acknowledgement about the type of Christianity where there is struggle to fast, or that there is a struggle to not have sex before marriage, so forth and so on.
You may not look like what being christian is in the eyes man...but God see's you as his believing baby boy or baby girl. My hope and prayer is that if you're like me, you'll eventually get past what you or others have thought what you should look like being christian.
Grace and Peace.
Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be christian and what it looks like to be christian. Most of us already know that by definition a Christian is someone who believes in Jesus. But what does being christian look like?. I've had to rethink and reassess what being christian can look like for me. I've had to come to terms with the fact that my christian walk isn't going to look like that one popular christian artist or christian social media influencer and that it was okay. I've had to accept that everybody who is christian is in a different place than me when it comes to their relationship with Jesus. I think for me that realization was the most disappointing truth I've had to constantly remember and accept time and time again. I feel like having to to acknowledge and remember that has made me feel a bit lonely because it has made me feel like either I'll never be able to connect with someone who is christian because their walk is different or that I'll never be good enough to connect with someone who's relationship with Jesus is deeper than mine because I'm not where they are ( but of course that's not true).
Because of having such insecure feelings I've often wondered, am I not connected to other believers because I don't fast as often like that they do? Is it because I cuss sometimes? Is because I'm not as "souled out" for Jesus as they are? ( whatever that means). I've often been made to feel like by people that being christian was what I did or didn't do. I know I don't have a perfect picture cut image of what being christian is when it comes from the perception of people. I am well aware of my flaws mishaps and insecurities, so again, what does being christian look like then?
As much as I've wanted to be accepted and acknowledged by other Christians and connected to other Christians so that I could see what they were doing because deep down I was looking for a blue print. But I'm learning that my being christian so far, had nothing to do with connecting with other Christians but everything to do with having a relationship with Jesus. Having a relationship with the father is what kept me Christian. It was having a relationship with Jesus and reading the bible is what kept me believing and has kept me believing thus far.
Now if some way or some how, I end up in community with other Christians...great, but if I don't that's still great. I'm learning that being christian has everything to do with where my heart is with Jesus. I think that whatever "being' christian looks like in the eyes of man will never be similar to what it actually is. It just feels like now a days there has a to be a look, A certain criteria and there's not enough acknowledgement about the type of Christianity where there is struggle to fast, or that there is a struggle to not have sex before marriage, so forth and so on.
You may not look like what being christian is in the eyes man...but God see's you as his believing baby boy or baby girl. My hope and prayer is that if you're like me, you'll eventually get past what you or others have thought what you should look like being christian.
Grace and Peace.
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