Ponder On This...

I have finally come to the realization that having an identity in relation to others is meaningless. I think that yes it can be great to be known as someone's friend, sister, brother, uncle, aunt, daughter, son, so forth and so on but at the end of the day, those relationships don't always last. Unfortunately those relationships can crumble at any given moment in time, and for some those relationships are beyond reconciliation. I think we love to assume that the relationships we have with other people are relationships that are incapable of being broken or disappearing. I personally have had to learn the harsh lesson of finding out that placing my identity in who I was in relationship with ( whether romantic, platonic or familial) was not a healthy thing to do. I didn't even realize that it was something that I was subconsciously doing. I think because I had lived a life of constantly experiencing rejection that I thought that if I was in any form of relationship with someo...

So, this is probably going to be my most vulnerable post thus far..bare with me. Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be christian and what it looks like to be christian. Most of us already know that by definition a Christian is someone who believes in Jesus. But what does being christian look like?.  I've had to rethink and reassess what being christian can look like for me. I've had to come to terms with the fact that my christian walk isn't going to look like that one popular christian artist or christian social media influencer and that it was okay. I've had to accept that everybody who is christian is in a different place than me when it comes to their relationship with Jesus. I think for me that realization was the most disappointing truth I've had to constantly remember and accept time and time again. I feel like having to to acknowledge and remember that has made me feel a bit lonely because it has made me feel like either I'l...