I'm done comparing my relationship with Jesus

I have spent a lot time contemplating what my personal relationship with Jesus ought to look like by attempting to look at other peoples relationship with him and comparing the difference. I now realize that I have been doing myself a disservice. How someone else's relationship with Jesus looks like is none of my business.

I have spent such a along time eyeing people in the church who were apostle's pastors, teachers, prophets, evangelist, intercessor, worship leader etc thought I didn't matter because I didn't have those titles and gifting. I had felt like God didn't care to talk to me or communicate with me because I didn't have a church title. After all, I'm just a person who loves to write and have amazing conversations...what could God do with that? Why would he bother with someone like me who didn't have the "ideal" church title or more popular gift.

For some reason I assumed that church titles, gifts, talents and popularity determined God's level of interest in me and how much he invested in me and it was never even like that with God. I made the assumption based on how people in the church treated me.

"Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end.  For we know only in part, and we prophesy only in part  but when the complete comes, the partial will come to an end. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways.  For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known. And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love." - 1 Corinthians 13:8-13

Jesus dying on the cross for me and becoming every one of my sins is while on the cross is love.
Jesus shedding his blood on the cross for me so that I'd be healed of every form of sickness is love.
Jesus making a way of escape for my temptations is love. 
Jesus accepting me the way I was and am now while working out my soul salvation is love. 

I realize now that I don't need to look at my relationship with Jesus and compare it with the next person because if I just focus on his love for me, how he looks operating in someone else's life becomes none of my business. 


If we had a friend who was comparing their relationship with someone else's relationship we'd tell that friend that's it's not worth it. We would show them how that insecurity does not help their relationship with the person that their with and how it only hurts the relationship. 

If your like me, let's vow together to stop comparing our relationship with Jesus to someone else's relationship with him and chose to grow in God's love for us individually. 

Grace and Peace.

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