I'm done comparing my relationship with Jesus
I have spent a lot time contemplating what my personal relationship with Jesus ought to look like by attempting to look at other peoples relationship with him and comparing the difference. I now realize that I have been doing myself a disservice. How someone else's relationship with Jesus looks like is none of my business. I have spent such a along time eyeing people in the church who were apostle's pastors, teachers, prophets, evangelist, intercessor, worship leader etc thought I didn't matter because I didn't have those titles and gifting. I had felt like God didn't care to talk to me or communicate with me because I didn't have a church title. After all, I'm just a person who loves to write and have amazing conversations...what could God do with that? Why would he bother with someone like me who didn't have the "ideal" church title or more popular gift. For some reason I assumed that church titles, gifts, talents and popularity determine...