Protect Your Influence

I am not famous. I am not a celebrity but I have extremely high hopes of having the ability to make an impact on my generation. I have often wondered and contemplated what that would look like. Maybe when I get my degree, Maybe when I get my ideal position, or maybe when I have a lot of followers on social media and yet I don't have any of that. The only thing I literally have is influence.

Influence  : The capacity to have an effect on the character, development, or behavior of someone or something, or the effect itself. 

I don't have a job right now, but I have influence. I don't have a lot of money in the bank right now, but I have influence. Today I realized that my influence isn't to be squandered with. My influence is ,meant for a group for people who may need my perspective, my discernment, my encouragement so forth and so on. Today I realized that no matter what my circumstance looks like I shouldn't be so desperate lay aside my influence just so my physical needs can be met.

Before I was contemplating what to write I was asking the Holy Spirit what to do. I wasn't sure if I should write this blog post or not and  I was simultaneously trying to change the subdomain of my blog because I'm also thinking if I am going to write this blogpost then my subdomain should be something creative. I had recalled how I was told that I had the scribe anointing and was going to write a book one day so I'm attempting to fit in the word scribe in my subdomain and no matter what I came up with as my subdomain it was already taken. At that moment I gave up and asked the holy spirit what to do. He leads me to Matthew 23 and I read about the Pharisees and scribes who had placed themselves as teachers of the law but never practiced what they taught regarding the law.

That entire passage wrecked me because prior to writing this post I was desperate for my financial need to be met and I was willing to use my ability to write to make a profit and not because it was going to impact anyone. I didn't want to be as the scribe who knew God's word but didn't live by it. I felt like God was showing me my heart in that moment. In Matthew 23:11 I was reminded that before I am a scribe I am a servant. I felt like the Holy Spirit, he gently humbled me and profoundly reminded me what was more important.

I believe that my needs will be met but today God reminded me that my influence isn't to be squandered. God reminded me that a popular title means nothing if my heart isn't right and for that I am grateful.

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